Sigh

So I find myself in another dilemma.

I met this guy and we went out this weekend and had a really good time. We talk a lot and have a lot of fun when we're together.

I think that this has a lot of potential and it's scaring the hell out of me. I mean I've been screwed over so much in the past year, and now I am scared to get hurt again. I really don't think this guy is like that. He seems really chill and that we're looking for the same things. We definitely have a lot of stuff in common, which is awesome.

I feel like I might be smothering him, because I text him everyday to talk. But I don't want him to think that I'm not interested in him either. I'm trying to do whatever's best right now, but I'm not quite sure what that is right now.

I suppose the right thing would be to just let things ride and leave them be. We have fun together and that should be enough. But letting things ride has what's gotten me screwed over in the past. So part of me wants to cut my losses now. But If I keep running away, I'll never get anywhere. I guess I'm just gonna have to try really hard to just let things be.

I mean I think this guy is interested in me too. Who knows, he may be just as nervous as me. It doesn't help that I have nothing to do this summer, but sit around and think about such things.

At any rate, I'm gonna try my best to do this. I mean I'm happy when I'm with you. I know we just started hanging out, but when I saw you the first time, I felt something inside that let me know that this could be good. I just have to hold out again. Just please let this be a good thing!