Time Won't Let Me Go

I can't believe it's been so long since I've last posted on here. I guess I stopped because I stopped having so much boy drama in my life. This weekend was Valentine's Day and it made me a little sad. I wasn't at first, but the more I thought about it, the more sad I got. Anyway, I don't really have anyone in my life like at all for once and that's kind of nice. One guy is still calling me when it's convenient for him, which is like once every two weeks. I'm doing my best not to answer his calls. Chuck is still trying to date me, which is getting really old and annoying...it's just never EVER going to happen. I really don't want that to happen.

I went and saw He's Just Not That Into You last night. It was a really good movie. It made me really happy and really sad at the same time. I got the affirmation I needed from that movie, but I also realized how desperate I can be and that bugs me. I see myself so much differently than I really am sometimes.

But now its nice to take a break from all the guy drama and just do what I want. I feel like with every guy I met I just dug deeper and deeper into scars that I never let heal, and it hurt so bad every time. I'm finally thinking that I'm content to be alone for now or however long I will be single. I just hope my love life didnt peak at 15.

Most days I still feel sad and am pretty sure I'll never meet that someone. I mean I know I'm a weird person and I'm a nerd and all that. I don't know. Maybe it's just not in my cards.