I'm feeling slightly better than my last post. Yes, my family went to the Bahamas without me and I'm still angry with them about it, but I can't change it. I still feel like I'm the unwanted step-child in my family and probably always will, so whatever. It is what it is.

I'm dating this guy who is really great. We met through friends at a bar one night and just started hanging out and it evolved quickly. And he rocks.

Now I'm concerned becuase I think I'm starting to develop some legit feelings towards him and this worries me. I just don't want to get hurt again. I don't really feel like I'm good enough to be with him and I feel really lucky and just sort of waiting for the other shoe to drop. I just feel like I have nothing to bring to the relationship and I'm afraid he's going to think the same thing. I guess there are worse problems to have and I should just focus on being happy.

So I've been feeling a little depressed lately. I think a lot of it is just not having a life game plan right now. I mean I have one, but it's super vague and whatever. I just feel like I've been busting my ass just to get by and it's not cool.
My family went to the Bahamas without me which made me feel great. I already felt like I wasn't a part of this family so that made me feel super awesome with myself.

I do have a boyfriend though who is really great. He makes me happy and we have fun together.