Just Breathe

Ahhh where to start. I'm just really down right now and need to get all this crap off my chest/and out of my head so I can go about, enjoying my life.

Thing 1.

I'm having a hard time staying up with my bills because I am not getting paid as I am supposed to, which sucks and is stressing me out like a lot.

Thing 2.

I'm pretty much heartbroken about moving back home. I'm basically going to lose all my freedoms that I've gained over the past few years and that's a really hard pill to swallow. In the long run, I know that this is probably the best and smartest move for me to make, but it still sucks. I And I swear on EVERYTHING, I will be out of my parents' house by next summer if it kills me.

I also need to get my car fixed if I plan on staying here, which bothers me badly because I know I won't have the money and now I don't know what to do. In my head worst case scenario is that I get a sublet apartment while I finish school and then go from there.

Thing 3.

I don't want to take Virginia to the Incubus concert and I don't know how to tell her without getting my face broken.


Thing 4.

I'm terrified that me moving home is going to make Ben want to break up with me and I would be, to say the least, very upset if I lost him. He is one of the best things to happen to me in a VERY long time and I just hope he and I can make it through and be happy together.



All that aside, I'm excited for Incubus this weekend, my birthday and going to Chicago for my birthday!